I’m Not Answering Any More Emails – I’m Fat and That’s That
My weight loss blog has generated a lot of feedback and a lot of emails for me. I’ve responded to everyone but I’m not responding anymore. The truth is I’m depressed and I don’t want to hear any more from anyone!
New Weight Loss Blog Rules – Effective Immediately!
I’ve gained even more weight since the last time I wrote and I’m seriously depressed about it. I’ve just been walking around in a sweat suit around the house. I don’t feel like doing anything and I don’t feel like talking about it.
I’m sorry if you’ve emailed me trying to help but I’m just not doing it anymore. I am thankful that you care and really did appreciate the words of encouragement but I no longer want anybody’s help.
If you really want to say something, you can leave a comment on the blog but I’m not doing the whole back and forth anymore so forget about it.
Why is the Weight Loss Support over with?
For the love of salty snacks, I know the dozen or so people that emailed me meant well, but I’m just done with the email back and forth stuff. As much as you tried to help me, I gained 16 pounds (overall) since November and the support emails and coaching tips just aren’t working. I really did lose some weight – in roller coaster ride fashion – but now I’ve gained it all back.
Who knows, I may go to a fat camp. I may go to a weight loss psychiatrist. I really don’t know what will happen but the weight loss emails are taking their toll on me. It’s just mentally draining to have all types of people emailing you – even if they’re all trying to help.
It got to the point where I was crying at work. My boss found me unprofessionally sobbing at my desk and called me into his office for the second time in two months. He told me that I can’t keep causing disruptions at work or else he’s going to have to fire me.
I was crying because I’ve made all these email promises and I couldn’t keep them. I was at my cubicle in the middle of the room and so even though I tried to cry quietly, people saw me with my head on the desk and heard me sniffling. When you’re just sitting their doing computer work, you start to think about all the little stuff in your life. I began thinking about all these people trying to coach me and get on me about toughening up and it started weighing on me.
Anyways, my boss excused me for the rest of the day and told me to get my act together tomorrow. I promptly went to McDonald’s and ordered 3 big macs, super sized fries, and a large vanilla shake.
I don’t even care anymore. I’m going to be a blubber pot for the rest of my life and I know it. So for anyone else that wants to come and be a hero, don’t. I don’t need any more pressure. I suck. I failed. Its all my fault. I make excuses. Yeah, yeah, yeah. I already know I won’t lose weight so please just leave me alone and let me be.
And Darla, please get off my case. I hate the drill sergeant approach and it makes me mad while I awake at night. You’ve caused me so much more emotional damage than you know. Just fck off and leave me alone. I’m blocking your email if I can.
Joy, you’re a sweetheart but I can’t stand you either. I know you’ll be the one that tries to email me despite this blog but please don’t. I won’t respond.
Lorie, you just annoy the hell out of me. You can’t lose weight yourself so I hate hearing your tips. Don’t email me. Don’t call me anymore. Just stay out of my life.
These are the people I hate the most. The constant emails over the last few weeks really pushed me to the brink and led to my emotional breakdown at work.
I’m done with it all. I’m fat. I’m depressed. I just want to be by myself.
If you want to go tell someone how to lose weight, here are some other weight loss blogs to get all Jillian Michaels on:
http://www.myallnaturalweightloss.com/
http://ronisweigh.com/
http://www.weightlossthoughts.com – My weight loss blog on being really fat
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Weight Loss Mood Swing: I Was Crabby Jack at the Office Today and Got in a Fight :(
With me being on the slow carb diet and losing weight lately, it’s good for my confidence and health but I have noticed my moods are more volatile. I think it has to do with the chemical changes in my brain but that’s just an educated guess.
Anyways, today I was at the office, stereotypically getting some water at the water cooler. A coworker of mine who I’ve never been found of came up and kind of edged me out of the way as I was about to finish getting my water. It was like he was going to time exactly when I would have a full cup and then made a physically efficient move but one that invaded my space.
Basically I was just another physical block he had to get around. There was no regard or respect for me as a person. I may be fat but I’m tired of getting pushed around. I said, “Hey Hank, why don’t you wait a fcking second before you come barging in?”
Hank just rolled his eyes over to me like I was some annoying thing he had to deal with out of his peripheral vision for the next 3 seconds. That’s when I lost my composure and just tackled him. Hank’s a smaller guy so my girth pretty much handled him by itself. All that happened after that was I yelled at Hank a few times while he struggled to try to get up. A few workers including my manager came to pull me off him and it was over in about 10 seconds.
Hank and I were both redfaced. He was super embarrassed for me having “beaten him up” (as the story was told). I was embarrassed that I was on the ground wrestling around like a gorilla – even moreso because it was at the office.
It was a totally weird scenario that the office manager had no clue what do with. Eventually we were brought into his office and told that the matter would be reviewed from up top and any disciplinary decision would be made from there but that it probably wouldn’t be a big deal as long as it didn’t happen anymore.
Ugh what a day. I was so upset I went to Mickey D’s, ordered 2 Big Macs with large fries and a coke and stuffed myself like a piggy when I got home. My diet, for at least today, was ruined.
Emotions are running high in Anywhere, USA. Let’s file this one under weight loss mood swings.